- Parent Category: History
- Category: Personal Stories
- Published on Thursday, 27 March 2008 16:54
From my earliest memories, I wanted nothing more than to know I was saved and on my way to Heaven. I heard many people talking about the joy of salvation and their longing to be with the Lord Jesus, the One who loved them and died for them. I listened to discussions about how soon the Lord Jesus was coming back to take Home all those who had trusted Him. That made my very being recoil with fear. I didn’t want to be left behind to face the judgement of God and then to face an eternity in Hell and the Lake of Fire.
My parents prayed for me and many times I saw them on their knees. They were faithful in reading us the scriptures in our home and we learned many gospel verses in the Bible. I had no doubt that I was a sinner.
Once when my little brother was five, he and I sat in my older brother’s room listening to him explain the way of salvation. My brother was saved that night and not wanting to miss out, I said I was saved too. I knew in my heart I wasn’t, but for a few years I tried to pass myself off as a Christian. I tried reading my Bible, but it was all a lie, to make others think I was saved.
One night as we were getting ready for bed, my sister said to me ‘I don’t think you are really saved at all.’ I knew she was right and I desperately wanted to be saved for real. ‘Believing’ was a problem for me! I tried so hard to ‘believe’ and even looked words up in the dictionary to see if I really knew what they meant. I was forgetting it was the Saviour that does the saving, not my ‘believing’. I got into bed that night and while I was lying there, a verse came into my mind. I had learned it when I was little and knew it well. ‘Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and thou shalt be saved.’ Acts 16:32. I just took God at His Word. He does not lie! I took it for myself that Jesus came into the world – and that He went to a cross and took the punishment that I deserved and died to take away my sin. I trusted Him as my Saviour.
I could not live without Him today. He comforts me when I am sad, He helps me when I am troubled. The best part is yet to come! He is coming back for me to take me to Heaven for all eternity.
Bonnie lives in Ontario, Canada, with her husband Gary who writes the newsletter The Encourager on this site.